OK remember how a couple weeks ago I hinted that I was cleaning out my closet?
Well, I did it!  And I was going to take pictures, but then I forgot.  But it was a successful closet clean-out.  I got rid of two trash bags of old clothes, and a cardboard box of shoes, and another two reusable grocery bags with more shoes and with sweaters.
I tried to be relatively moderate in my approach to closet cleaning-out.  It was easy to get rid of the things that I haven't worn in years.  And the things that were just plain out of style (and too young/trendy to come back *in* style anytime soon), or ill-fitting or ill-cut.  I didn't try too hard to be ruthless, though - I still have half a dozen patterned button-down shirts for casual, sleeves-rolled-up wear.  I kept a few little tops that I'd gotten at thrift stores but haven't really given much love.  I kept both identical Lands End fleece pullovers (red and black) because they're just SO cozy for weekend wear (even though I no longer buy polyester).  I kept a lot of things which - if I'm being honest with you - I think I'll probably be getting rid of in my next clean-out.  But that's OK, right?  Baby steps, and all that.
So with lots of newly-empty hangers in my closet, and newly-visible floor space, I...went shopping.
BUT!  (here's where it gets interesting).  On Saturday I approached the mall specifically with the purpose of "I have money.  I wish to spend money for clothes.  Please let me give you money for clothes."
I had sorta-specific goals in mind, even - a grey skirt.  Another winter-y dress.  Some cute non-neutral heels.  Heeled boots that I could wear with my long skirts.  A long flowy skirt.  A statement necklace.
I had a 30% discount for the GAP, BR, and Old Navy.  So I started there.  I found nothing.  I decided to check out the Anthropologie sale room.  Nothing.  (!!!  This is how you know it's getting bad...).  I popped into The Limited.  Naturalizer.  NY&Co. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.
I LEFT THE MALL EMPTY-HANDED.
(Well, here I must confess - but for a light grey cotton cardigan.  But that's beside the point, and was not one of my goals anyway.)
Jen, do you have any idea how bad things are when I cannot find a single thing to buy in the GAP or Anthropologie?  Let me restate it - NOTHING IN THE GAP OR ANTHROPOLOGIE.  WHEN I HAVE MONEY TO SPEND.  BURNING A HOLE IN MY POCKET.
This is not so good.
I was so despondent, I didn't even get a soft pretzel.
I headed home dejected and nearly empty-handed.
So...what do you think is the lesson here?  Why did my shopping expedition fail so?
Well, believe it or not, I wouldn't really consider it a failure.  Sure, I went shopping.  Sure, I failed to find anything.  But here's why:
1)I was shopping mindfully, not blindly.  I wasn't shopping to fill any emotional void, or out of boredom, or spite.  I had a few general ideas in mind, and hoped to meet some of them.  I wasn't too specific, nor too vague.  It wasn't "a black long-sleeved wool dress" or "a dress", but "a winter dress".
2)I kept a firm eye for quality.  It's long been documented that I don't mind spending money on high quality, classic items.  But now I'm broadening that scope - *all* I want to buy, now, are high quality, classic items.  I no longer have the desire to get that itchy acrylic sweater, or the weakly-seamed cotton skirt, or the shoes with glue-edges showing.  I have better things to spend my money on.  And when I *don't* find things like that, well, I won't spend it.
3)I've adjusted my price caps accordingly.  Now this is so subjective, and varies for me nearly by the hour.  But in general, I think that right now I'm willing to pay more for things than I was in the past - but only if they meet the quality goals set above.  However, I'm not the type to pay for a name or a logo.  So no, I won't pay $75 for that cute little (acrylic) cardigan at Banana Republic (especially when I can knit a better one for the same amount).  But if it's all cotton and a cute style, I'll pay $12 for a clearance item at Old Navy.  I think this makes me a hypocrite.  I don't think I care.
So would you consider that a failure, Jen? I didn't obtain Stuff, but I also didn't obtain ugly worthless Stuff.  I kept my money, instead.  For a while, at least...
(to be continued, in the form of "The Spoils"...)
<3
Kate